Happy birthday, Tiktok ♥

It's N0vember 22, 2010.

It's my bestie's bday!

SITI NURUL YAKIN

My bestfriend who is 180 degrees different with me!

One of those who knows my good and accept my bad.

The one who always support me but sometimes can be so annoying.

But still, I ♥ YOU like my own sister!

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST, DARLA! ♥

Anorexia and Bulimia

When Being Thin is All You Think About

Jennifer is 14 years old and on the eighth-grade honor role at school. She is five feet four inches tall and originally weighed 110 pounds but has lost about 30 pounds in the past year. She wants to lose more. Jennifer says she is "grossed out" by overweight people. She wants to be "athletic-looking without flabby curves."

Most days Jennifer eats plain yogurt with fruit for lunch. (OMG! I eat fried chicken for my lunch, and I lost about 3 kg last week.) For breakfast she has a stick of sugarless gum. (A gum for breakfast?!) If she eats dinner, it might be carrot sticks or a small salad. (Well, I have a pecel leleor bebek cabe ijo / roasted duck for my dinner. Yummy!) Despite her skin-and-bones appearance and assurances from others that she is too skinny, Jennifer exercises almost two hours daily.

Thin is in. Exercise programs, diet centers, infomercials, weight-loss groups, and figure salons cannot meet the demand. Some estimate that over 20 million people in the country are seriously dieting, and that they spend more than $10 billion yearly to do so. (If I have those money, I would buy the Poncan Island for myself! HAHAHAHAHA!!!)

The media do their part to preach the thin-is-in message. Slinky models smile from the covers of magazines, billboards, and television. Their message is celar: "If you want to be happy and succeed, you cannot be too thin."

This message is deeply disturbing to some people. Their passion for thinness becomes an overwhelming obsession that takes priority over everything else. These people suffer from disorders called anorexia and bulimia.

Pop singer Karen Carpenter died in 1983 of unexplained heart failure at the age of 32. After her death, her family revealed that she had been suffering from anorexia for 12 years.Anorexia is a life-threatening starvation syndrome. A person with anorexia has an irrational fear of being fat and is constantly trying to become thinner. Anorexia can be deadly.

Bulimia is characterized by repeated cycles of binge eating followed by self-induced vomiting, laxative abuse, or fasting and excessive exercise. During a binge phase, bulimic people consume enorjmous amounts of food like ice cream, chocolates, and candy. They sometimes binge for hours! To relieve the painful feeling of being gorged and to reduce worries about weight gain, bulimic people will often force themselves to vomit. While weight loss may not be as extreme as in anorexia, bulimia can lead to kidney problems and many other serious problems.

Here are some suggestions.

1. Look at your attitude about weight loss

If you're dieting, ask yourself why. Are you truly overweight, or do you just want to look thinner? Are you under a doctor's orders to lose weight for medical reasons, or are you trying to please friends and potential dates? (If my boyfriend asked me to lose my weight, I would know that he's NOT the one, he's just ONE of jerks.) All I ever thought about was my weight. Finally my mom helped me manage my weight without losing my mind. Hahaha... Thanks mom! ♥

2. Find a good counselor

Every person who struggles with harmful eating habits can benefit from seeing a trained expert. Ask a teacher, minister, or physician to recommend someone skilled in dealing with eating disorders. But for me, my best counselor is my mother.

3. Keep a food journal

It helps to keep track of the type and amount of food you eat. Record the times and places when you eat and the feelings and thoughts you have before, during, and after eating. This will help you to become more aware of the connections between your feelings and eating habits and to identify the kinds of feelings that lead to unhealthy eating patterns.

4. Schedule a medical exam

Every person with anorexia or bulimia needs to get expert medical attention --- a physical exam is a must. Without knowing it, your blood pressure, heart rate, body temperature, and respiration rates could be dangerously out of balance. A pharmacist in a drug store might be a good person to turn to for direction.

LOOKING AHEAD

If you are obsessed with thinness --if it's all you seem to think about -- you don't have to continue to suffer and put your health at risk. Talk with a professional about this problem. It can save you years of heartache. It can help you to see you are beautiful just the way you are(Bruno Mars' song - Just The Way You are) and that real beauty comes from within. It may even save your life.

Discover the beauty within you!

2 November 2010

Berbagai kejadian yg gw alami di tanggal ini:

1. Misa pagi di gereja, byk yg minta intensi misa utk arwah2 org katolik yg saking panjangnya mpe 5 menitan deh si pastor bacain nama2 nya. untungnya nama bokap gw ada di urutan atas, kedua gitu

2. Baru aja nyampe rumah habis nganterin nyokap kerja, eh uda ditelpon lg ma nyokap disuru bantuin ngajar anak-anak Playgroup di TK nya. cape banget pdhl, macet nya itu lho ga tahannnn T.T

3. Krn suntuk sama penelitian dan mslh2 lain, gw jadi bengong2 gitu. Tiba2 disamperin sama Olive (a 3 years-old chubby girl) trus ditanya "Kakak kenapa? Ada yg sakit?" dgn muka yg khawatir banget. Aduhhh jadi terharu banget, rasanya jd pengen nangis dan curhat ke dia, tp mana dia ngerti masalah2 gw yg bertubi-tubi. Jadi gw senyum dan jawab "Ga ada apa-apa kok. Makasi ya oliv." :')

4. Setelah tersentuh sama Olive, tiba2 aja gw jdi punya rasa percaya diri klo gw bisa lewatin smua ini dgn baik. Gw jadi berpikir begini, kalo emg gw sejelek yg dipikirkan org selama ini, yg hanya ng-judge gw dari penampilan luar gw, mereka yg bego, mereka yg salah. Kenapa? Krn anak kecil itu lbh sensitif dan lbh jujur. Mereka seolah-olah bisa melihat ke dalam hati kita, siapa kita sebenarnya. Jadi klo emg gw sejelek spt yg dipikirkan org2, pasti anak2 ga suka dong ma gw. Tapi kenapa ini anak2 suka bgt main ma gw. Mereka tau gw tulus sayang sama mereka. Beda dgn org2 yg lain itu, yg wlo gw tulus sama mereka, tetep aja mereka ga bisa nerima gw apa adanya,tetep aja mikir gw itu ada maunya. Jadi gw berpikir, ya sudahlah. Yg penting Tuhan tau gw ga seperti itu. Hallelluya! Gw jadi semangat lagi! Thank you ya Olive, uda kasi kakak semangat :)

5. Gatau apakah emg krn mereka menyadari ketulusan gw (atau tampang gw yg mirip pembokat) anak-anak pada heboh rebutan minta digantiin baju sama gw. Yg biasanya ga pernah mau diganti baju aja minta gw gantiin. Mungkinkah mereka menyadari kalau saya keibuan? Wah saya baru nyadar lho. Hahaha...

6. Anak-anak yg umurnya berkisar 2-3 tahun ini, semua pada lagi lucu-lucunya dan bandel-bandelnya. Ada yg anak laki-laki, botak, umur 3 tahun, kalo gw senyumin lgsg nunduk-nunduk gitu. Hihihi... lucuunyaaaaaa! Trus ada yg anak perempuan, sambil senyum-senyum, gandengan tangan mlu ma temen laki-lakinya. Aaaaaaa...! xD

7. Ada anak laki-laki, umur 3 tahun, mirip banget ma seseorang yg pernah ada di hati gw (aih bahasanyaaaaa..) Nyokap mpe bilang, klo gw jadi ma si seseorang itu dulu, pasti anak gw mirip banget ma si anak kecil ini. Hahaha... Memang cinta pertama itu susah ya buat dilupain. Hihi ;)

8. Numpang mobil temen nyokap, Daihatsu Luxio, bareng mau ikut Misa Arwah di Sibiru-biru. Penuh perjuangan banget. Panas banget, macet banget, ngantuk banget, tapi juga sedih banget. Gw sedih ga bisa ziarah bokap gw di Nusa Dua, Bali. Gw ziarah ke org2 lain, gw doain buat mereka, tapi gw ga bisa ziarah dan ngeliat pemberkatan makam bokap di Bali. Hampir nangis juga gw, mpe ga kuat berdiri krn kaki lemes bgt, jadi gw gandeng tangan nyokap di sebelah gw. I love you, Mom ♥

9. Pas jalan pulang (numpang lagi di mobil yg sama), ada si Aurel (a 5 years-old girl) dan Moses (a 4 years-old boy). Pertamanya kan mereka duduk di baris kedua, gw di paling belakang. Krn nganggur, gw ajak main mereka. Mpe akhirnya mereka rebutan buat duduk deket gw, pada pindah ke blkg. Howaaa.. jadi sempit sih, tapi terakhir gw pangku si Aurel. Trus gw diajarin si Aurel cara main ala anak-anak yg judul permainannya "Teman atau Pacar". Asli! Gw ma nyokap mpe ketawa2, kok anak-anak bisa ciptain mainan yg kyk gini. Hahaha...

10. Kan kita satu mobil sama Romo Prasetyo (pas jln pulang, Romo yg nyetir, katanya kasian sama temennya nyokap tadi uda nyetir, pasti cape), jadi kita balik nya di gereja katedral. Nah, mobil gw ga bisa keluar! Ternyata ada misa di katedral, jadi parkiran uda pada penuh. Terpaksa deh gw ma nyokap makan buka puasa di mobil dgn cahaya ala kadarnya.

11. Tukang parkir katedral baik hati, dia panggil temen-temen supir yg ada disitu buat bantuin dia dorong satu mobil yg menghalang mobil gw keluar. Pdhl itu mobil di rem tangan, bayangin aja dorong nya kyk gimana. Lagi-lagi aku terharu sama kebaikan org-org. Masih ada ternyata yg peduli sesama. Padahal cuma tukang parkir lho. Byk yg jadi direktur, manager, dll tapi ga punya hati. Taunya mentingin diri sendiri. Harus byk belajar nih dari anak-anak kecil dan org-org kecil spt si bpk tukang parkir ini.

12. Pas jalan pulang ke rumah, uda malam, jam 8 sih, tapi krn gw rabun malam jadi gw ngrasa gelap banget. Pas gw mau masukin mobil ke garasi, gw turun mobil, org rumah lgsg teriak2 "Nita nabrak kucing tadi! Nita nabrak kucing! Nabrak kucing! Kucing!" Gw kaget dan lgsg ngeliat ke dpn garasi rmh, eh iya bener. Anak kucing. Nah kucing ini emg uda seminggu selalu aja nongkrong dpn rmh. Uda diusir gimana pun gamau pergi. Jadi ya kita emg kasi makanan sisa ke dia, selama ini klo dia uda ke tengah jalan, kita pinggirin biar ga digiles. Eh tau-tau gw sendiri yg ga sengaja nabrak dia. Gw panik, trus pas mau gw pegang, dia tiba-tiba gerak! Gw mpe kaget. Gw teriak minta air, gw masi berharap dia masih hidup. Tapi pas gw pegang lagi, uda ga gerak lagi. Lemes gw.

13. Depan rumah ada pohon, dibawah pohon itu lah gw gali lubang buat nguburin anak kucing tadi. Gw lapisin dgn tissue berlapis-lapis (pura-puranya kain kafan gitu), trus gw masukin plastik supaya ntr bau nya ga kemana-mana. Gw kubur, siramin air suci dari gereja Velankanni yg emg slalu tersedia di rmh gw, trus gw berdoa supaya arwahnya diterima di sisi-Nya. Kata nyokap, cepet-cepet minta supaya si kucing doain kita. Gw bingung, emg kucing bisa berdoa, tapi krn gw anak penurut (rada gampang percaya), gw doa deh "Cing,(panggilan sayang gw buat si kucing) doain saya ya. Cepet kaya, cepet dpt jodoh. Tapi yg baik dong kali ini. Cape pacaran ma yg taunya selingkuh dan omong besar." Si org rmh yg lagi bantuin gw juga ikut2an berdoa. Trus gw nanya dia doa apa, dia cuma senyum trus rada sombong dia bilang "Tunggu aja tanggal mainnya." Lhaaaa...

Fuwahh.. Tiga Belas kejadian yg sangat sangat sangat berkesan buat gw. Duh ngelaluin tgl 2 November 2010 seharian aja uda serasa ngelewatin seminggu dgn segitu byk kejadian. Moga dgn semua suka dan duka seharian ini, Iman dan Kepercayaan gw semakin kuat. Amin.

God Bless You :)